Cold hard reality
Now that the reality of our much-extended wait has set in, I realized that we have a lot of changes to make if there will be no travel and no baby this fall. I will confess I spent a good part of the rainy day today feeling sorry for myself. I have decided, though, that I really need to find things to either look forward to or that are upsides othewise I will be over here drowning myself in brownies for the next six months.
By far the biggest change only occurred to me about an hour ago. If we are at least six months to referral and 7-8 to travel (if not more!), I can stop taking all these damn drugs to induce lactation. Mama is going to get her sex drive back! Woo HOo! If I can’t have a baby, I may as well have some orgasms, goddammit! Beginning tonight, there will be no more Domperidone and beginning tomorrow, no more birth control pills.
I broke the news to A that my boobs will be shrinking rapidly, but he may actually get the chance to have sex more than once a month when my sex drive is back. He has agreed to the small boob/more sex trade off. (As if he really had much say in the matter!) Now that I have seen how quickly the pills work, I am pretty comfortable starting them only a month or two prior to when we expect our referral.
Another upside is that we will hopefully have plenty of time to get some of the much needed repairs completed around the house. We need to get some of the floors refinished and the tubs & tile in both bathrooms need to be replaced. Both projects are big, messy and expensive. The more we get completed before the baby comes, the better.
I will be completely honest, nothing will really take away the sting of not meeting the HFC by Christmas or probably even Easter, but we will be ok. If I keep repeating that enough, I may actually start to believe it.
At the very least, I will get to have some orgasms between now and then.
honey, I feel like we are both on the same roller-coaster of feeling sorry for ourselves alternating with self pep talks. If you feel like it, give me a call so that we can give each other pep talks…it’s much less lonely that way! I’ve got my fingers crossed in one hand for you guys and fingers crossed in the other hand for us. Look at it this way, now we have more of a chance to be taking care of new babies at the same time! Lots of love, anna
Damn…I don’t need a libido or I may do something for which the CCAA would throw me out ;0)
Have fun!!!
I wouldn’t get too dispondent just yet. I don’t know when your paperwork went in but my agency just got referrals for expedited people who submitted their paperwork in December 2005. And the last group of expedited folks [I think it was people from three different DTC dates] traveled to China in July.
So maybe the wait won’t be as long as you think!
I DARE you to go on RQ or APC to encourage the whiney ones to have orgasms while their wait gets longer… I DARE YOU!
Enjoy!
I’m sorry you have to wait longer! What a bummer, but hey orgasms…got to love them!
Fock. That sucks. Lots and lots and lots of empathy sent your way.
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Hey there- I just discovered your blog today, and after reading your “about”, I’m in love. Oh wait, is it too soon for that? While the return to the midwest is surprising (only ‘cuz most Californians live and swear by ‘once you go west, everything elses’ second best’), I’m happy to have discovered a funky, cool mama like yourself.