I can’t remember if I have mentioned my phobia of our assigned snack day at M’s preschool. I HATE snack day. Because M’s teacher is harsh exacting intimidating a little scary, I am always worried about what I will bring and whether or not it Mrs. Teacher will approve. I worry about snack day for about a week ahead of time.
Today was our assigned snack day at school. If you need any illustration of where my head has been lately, it can most clearly be seen in the fact that I totally FORGOT to take any snack at all.
Oh, the shame! The horror! I want to crawl under a chair and disapear.
As if that wasn’t bad enough, yesterday I had lunch plans with friend. As I was driving to meet her, it suddenly occured to me that M had swimming lessons an hour later. I had to call at the very last minute and cancel. I felt like a total ass.
I have too many balls in the air and my attention is elsewhere.
I have been trying to cram a lot of last minute this and thats into the past few weeks. I have been shopping like a fiend, scheduling appointments left and right (international adoption clinic, dentist for Me and M, haircuts for me and M, Dr’s appt for M and my mom, sleep clinic for A, etc.). M’s birthday is coming up in about two weeks and I am contemplating planning two small family parties. I am helping plan a baby shower for a good friend on Feb 3rd. NOt to mention trying to figure out all the logistics of our trip.
Just reading all those things make me feel a little ill.
It feels a little like everyone wants a chunk of us right now. One last visit before baby jail begins. I am worn thin and all I want to do is hibernate. We even have friends who have offered to throw us a party but the idea of yet one more event put me over the top. I said no, but thanks!
I am about ready to go into lockdown mode. No more saying yes to anything.
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Along with that same thread, my usually abyssmal comment answering has gone from bad to worse. For some reason wordpress isn’t sending my new comments to my email, so I am missing some of them.
I am too tired to figure it out, but if someone has an idea about what might be wrong, I would love to hear it. I suspect I won’t be able to access my actual blog page from China so if I don’t get comments via email, I will not be able to know what is happening out in bloglandia.
Also, I guess I am trying to say that I am going to be doing an even worse job than usual at answering comments since they aren’t accessible from my email account. I do love comments though, so don’t hesitate to leave them.
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A couple people asked about the status of my adoptive breastfeeding efforts. I started back on the Newman-Goldfarb protocol the day after we got our referral. After about two weeks, I started noticing some increase in the fullness of my br*easts and some drops of milk, so I am pretty sure it is working.
I figure we have about 5 or 6 weeks before we get home and I start pumping.
For those of you who are new around here, I used to post about adoptive breastfeeding at Milkshake . I stopped writing there when we realized how much longer we were going to have to wait for a referral. In the months since then, I managed to forget my login and password. I will probably eventually either figure it out or copy the posts and put them over here.
I can access your blog from China. In fact, I’m writing this comment right now from China. If you’re staying in decent hotels while you’re here (even in the middle of nowhere in the central less-developed provinces) then you’ll probably be able to use the internet in the business centre – good hotels generally have very decent internet access. If you’re staying in a 4 or 5 star hotel then you’ll also probably have a laptop internet connection available in your room. (Some of the budget hotel chains in Beijing, Shanghai and Guangzhou are now offering that as well.)
Of course, you might not have the time or energy to write anything – I think we’d all understand that – but you should be able to get connected.
hey, slow down lady, otherwise you don’t have energy for your daughter… if you start to forget things, it means that too much is going on in your life…
You can shop after she’s here…
man, you sound overwelmed. I hope you can get some quiet time before travel!
It’s always so funny to me to read what you have to say about M’s school because ours is the same way. Snack day is a big deal– they boys “present” the snack and talk about it and all the other kids say thank you. There is a list of suggested snacks that includes hummus and pita bread with black beans. No way am I buying hummus and pita bread and black beans for 18 toddlers! We usually bring some whole fruit, whatever is cheap at the time.
Wow, you have a lot going on. Just reading your list makes me tired!
Breathe, breathe…. It’s okay.
You don’t have to do it all. But then, you knew that. I’m glad you are scaling back on your obligations, but I can really appreciate the need to take care of appointments and get various things out of the way. I always think it’ll make my life easier if I work ahead. ha. It’s mostly true, but sometimes even that starts to make me crazy. I have 2+ years, and I am contemplating making diapers–save me! lol
If I don’t comment again before you leave, I just wanted to tell you I am rooting for you, and hoping you have a wonderful time with everything falling into place. Wishing you all the best!
Loooong time lurker coming out of The Interweb, finally, to say congratulations to you, A. and M. on the new girl. Any news on a TA? I read somewhere that they have started making their way here…
I forgot snack last week for preschool, too. But that was the snack for the parents. Dude, our preschool starts at 12:30. Eat lunch, people! You can go 2 hours without a snack, can’t you!
Anyway, I could have stopped at the store on the way, but I was too lazy. Tee hee.
Sounds like you are majorly stressed out! Can the Mr. be in charge of something? For real.
You are going to have a wonderful trip. You’ll make it! And you will have a new cutie in your arms. And you will figure out how to make her smile. And then you will be all good.
Don’t be hard on yourself, and if you need to hibernate, then do it — don’t let anyone pressure you. When I feel overwhelmed, I feel the same way — Just let me focus, people!
Happy birthday in 2 weeks!
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Wow, you’re having a baby and you’re planning a baby shower for someone else? Someone should plan a shower for you–that’s all I’m saying…