Conflicted

Mr. A is out of town.  Is there any surprise I ended up looking at our adoption agency’s waiting child list?*

This time I didn’t have any desire to adopt again, ( I can say for sure we are 100% done adding children to this family) but seeing the kids and babies on that list made me so pissed.  Once again, there is a little boy on that list who is missing his hand  but has no other special needs.  He just turned one this month and he has been on the list long enough that his file is going to be sent back without a match.

What the heck?  There are people who would rather wait for FOUR years to adopt from China rather than adopt a BOY with a special need that requires pretty much no management at all?  Seriously, I could set you up for a visit with Patti’s son Tate and in 5 minutes you could see that a missing hand doesn’t slow him down at ALL.

I also want to shake people and remind them that we adopted L from the non-special needs path (our agency’s recommendation at the time because they had so many antsy people waiting to get a kid from their SN list then and we were expedited anyway), and non-special needs does not mean perfect or perfectly healthy.  Just like many institutionalized kids, L had serious attachment issues as well other issues which require very expensive therapy appointments.  Let’s all acknowledge that NonSpecial Needs does not mean No Special Needs.

But let’s be honest, I am nothing if not hypocritical.  When people ask me about adoption, I largely try to convince them that it isn’t all sunflowers and roses.  I am not afraid to say they should think twice and then think about it some more.  An old friend recently emailed me and asked for adoption information and I wrote a lengthy email trying to tell her all the reasons adoption is not a walk in the park.  It wasn’t quite as rosy as this similar letter over at Burden of Thought, because in addition to adoption ethics I harped on trauma and attachment and cultural loss.

I don’t think adoption is for everyone.  I don’t think a lot of people make good adoptive parents.  I think a lot of adopted kids end up with unmet needs.  As adoptive parents, I think a lot of us think mostly about our own wants and dreams rather than the needs of the kids who are available for adoption.

I can’t reconcile my conflicted feelings about these issues.

So there you go. My adoption thoughts for the day.

*Also, note the last time I did that it was also October.  I assume this trend is related to the reduction of sunlight in fall which causes my sanity to suffer.

Planning an Itinerary when You can’t Plan

The other night, Mr. A and I had a bit of a Come to Jesus conversation about the big trip.  Every time I tried to ask him if he liked this idea or that idea, he would just shrug and say “Sure. That sounds fine.”   I think Mr. A is unwilling to commit mental energy to trip planning because he really doesn’t want to admit he job might be ending.  (This is the same reason he won’t start looking for a new job yet, which I find infuriating.)

In general, I like to have free reign to make decisions myself, but in this one instance, it is no go.  We are going to be tightly constrained by our budget and traveling with two shorties who will not have a lot of patience for they typical back-packer snafus that can delay progress from one location to another.

So Saturday night, Mr. A and I had a bit of a kerfluffle.  Actually, it was mostly me huffing and puffing and being irritated while he waited for me to calm down. (Not surprisingly, this is how many arguments at our house go.)  Then, on Sunday Mr. A and I had an actual grown up conversati0n about where we should go and for how long.

I had been mentally shrinking the trip length because I am worried about the money and Mr. A starting his new job (and making some money).  Mr. A is adamant that we go for two full months.  We will have to wait and see how it plays out, but two months was my original plan. Mr. A is also very against me traveling ahead by myself with the girls, but we will see how it plays out once we get to the ticket buying stage.

We have an additional problem planning because we don’t know which direction we will go.  Will we go Taiwan first or China?  If we go China first, do we go South-North  or North-South.    I think our final decision will rest on whether we can get plane tickets into one country and out the other.  To get between the two, I would like to take the ferry between Taipei and Xiamen to save ourselves about $1200 on plane fare.  I guess we could take it round trip, but it only comes once a week (thus constricting our schedule) and a ferry one time is fun, but twice is kind of a hassle.   I would do it if plane tix from China were super cheap though.  Also, if we are going to China first, I would like to start in Beijing and mail our winter clothing home when we get far enough south that we don’t need winter jackets.

Realizing this is only interesting to me, Below is our tentative list of places to visit.  They will be shuffled around based on our flights and when we travel.  The most important consideration is not traveling in China immediately before or at the beginning of Chinese New Year.  We hope to either be in Taiwan or hunkered down in a very quiet hotel somewhere in China during the travel craziness. It looks like we have about 6 weeks of stuff planned (loosely) but there will also be a bunch of train travel days in there.  Mr. A also wants to go to Hawaii on the way home, but I doubt we will be able to afford that after this much traveling.

Beijing (1 week)

  • Great Wall
  • Acrobat Show (unless we are definitely going to Shanghai and then we can see one there)
  • Hutong tour
  • Summer palace (for ice skating/sledding)
  • Forbidden City
  • Visit with our friends who are living there

Xian, Shaanxi (2-3 days)

  • Terra Cotta Soldiers

Guilin & Yangshuo, Guangxi  (1 week)

Hong Kong  (4-5 days)

  • HK disneyland
  • General sightseeing
  • eat dimsum

L’s Province, provincial capital (3-4 days)

  • Stay for a few days at the hotel we were in during our adoption trip. (Would be OK during CNY)
  • Let the girls chill there in the park nearby
  • Visit with our friend who lives in the area

L’s Hometown & Orphanage area (1 week)

  • Try to visit the orphanage & take staff out for fancy dinner
  • Try to locate L’s family
  • Visit finding locations of other orphanage kids (if requested by their parents)
  • Try local foods
  • Visit countryside

Xiamen, Fujian

  • Overnight ferry to Keelung (1 per week on Saturday_
  • Alternative route: Fuzhou – Matsu Island – Keelung (daily)

Taipei, Taiwan (7 days)

  • General sightseeing stuff

Taichung/Hometown Area (5 days)

  • Visit relatives
  • Visit dead relatives
  • See points of interest (family stuff)

Other Taiwan (3 days)

  • Sun Moon Lake
  • Puli
  • ?

Other possible stops:

Shanghai

  • Stay with Mr. A’s uncle (free!)

Liuzhou, Guangxi

  • See terrace farming

Kunming, Yunnan

  • see local stuff because neither of us have been there


Travel Suggestions?

For Reasons That Can’t Be Named, we won’t know if we are going to China in January until early November.  Right now, there is about a 60% chance we will be.   If that is the case, it looks like Mr. A won’t be able to leave until January 10th.

I am of two minds about his date of leaving.  Half of me thinks we definitely should not get on a plane unless Mr. A is with me because the odds of me going crazy a)alone for 18 hours with children on a plane or b) alone in a country where I speak at the level of a 16 month old with two children are very high.

The other half of me is pondering taking the children and flying off to Asia and  having him meet us there.  (That sounds crazy, no?  Especially because the children drove me crazy today when I made the mistake of taking them with me to the grocery store.)

So here is my question:

If you were going to China and/or Taiwan alone with two children, where would you go?

Ideally, it would be somewhere where hotel/living expenses are pretty cheap. Also someplace pretty laid back (beach? parks? etc.) not somewhere too touristy to visit like Beijing or HongKong.  I can imagine us doing pretty well on a beach in Thailand, but I don’t know that I want to buy plane tickets to a third country.

I am just thinking it would be nice for the girls and I get over our jetlag and the first rounds of culture shock before we start backpacking around.

Any suggestions, words of sanity, or thoughts by experienced travelers would be much appreciated.