Mr. A is out of town. Is there any surprise I ended up looking at our adoption agency’s waiting child list?*
This time I didn’t have any desire to adopt again, ( I can say for sure we are 100% done adding children to this family) but seeing the kids and babies on that list made me so pissed. Once again, there is a little boy on that list who is missing his hand but has no other special needs. He just turned one this month and he has been on the list long enough that his file is going to be sent back without a match.
What the heck? There are people who would rather wait for FOUR years to adopt from China rather than adopt a BOY with a special need that requires pretty much no management at all? Seriously, I could set you up for a visit with Patti’s son Tate and in 5 minutes you could see that a missing hand doesn’t slow him down at ALL.
I also want to shake people and remind them that we adopted L from the non-special needs path (our agency’s recommendation at the time because they had so many antsy people waiting to get a kid from their SN list then and we were expedited anyway), and non-special needs does not mean perfect or perfectly healthy. Just like many institutionalized kids, L had serious attachment issues as well other issues which require very expensive therapy appointments. Let’s all acknowledge that NonSpecial Needs does not mean No Special Needs.
But let’s be honest, I am nothing if not hypocritical. When people ask me about adoption, I largely try to convince them that it isn’t all sunflowers and roses. I am not afraid to say they should think twice and then think about it some more. An old friend recently emailed me and asked for adoption information and I wrote a lengthy email trying to tell her all the reasons adoption is not a walk in the park. It wasn’t quite as rosy as this similar letter over at Burden of Thought, because in addition to adoption ethics I harped on trauma and attachment and cultural loss.
I don’t think adoption is for everyone. I don’t think a lot of people make good adoptive parents. I think a lot of adopted kids end up with unmet needs. As adoptive parents, I think a lot of us think mostly about our own wants and dreams rather than the needs of the kids who are available for adoption.
I can’t reconcile my conflicted feelings about these issues.
So there you go. My adoption thoughts for the day.
*Also, note the last time I did that it was also October. I assume this trend is related to the reduction of sunlight in fall which causes my sanity to suffer.